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Blogging everyday until I’m better pt 4
Every time I feel like I’m starting to get better, something small comes along and completely destroys me. It really hurts, and I don’t know how to handle it. Sometimes it feels like people are trying to hurt me on purpose, even if I know deep down that isn’t the case. Each interruption, each micro…
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Blogging everyday until I’m better pt 2
Today was hard because my mind and body were refusing to get on the same page. My body was still recovering, while my mind was craving action and activities. On a better note, at least this conflict got me thinking about something very important. If you have been reading my blog for the past few…
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Blogging everyday until I’m better, pt. 1
Today, I learned something that I thought I had already learned. Not to settle for less. (At least not in the long run.) I had no choice but to quit my job, as it was making both my mind and body sick. Everyday I was coming out of shifts crying myself to sleep. My eyes…
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I’m not wearing these colors because I’m proud.
A bittersweet 4th of July I wore the colors of the American flag today, despite the fact that in years prior, I’d usually wear all black. It was a way to protest and show my frustration. Almost everything about the country made me angry. The increase of hatred, the lack of empathy from the people…
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An impossible goal
What is the legacy you want to leave behind? I just don’t want to hurt anyone the way they’ve hurt me. So many people in my life have been aware that they were hurting me, and still continued their behavior. No matter how many times I told them to stop. I know it’s probably impossible…
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Indecisive and Incomplete
My sacrifice is my own lifestyle, For as long as I can remember, I have sacrificed my independence and desires in order to satisfy others. This was particularly hard since I am an adopted, only child, with very overbearing parents. Despite knowing what I wanted, my parents shut down my decisions all the time, and…