Rock Candy Reviews

Today was pretty rough, because all I could think about was my past relationships. Specifically, ones that ended with the other party no longer being a part of my life.

They were not all particularly bad fall outs, but not considering them as in my social circle still hurts. I’ve been mourning these relationships for quite some time now. My heart simply misses the good times, and my longing for connection hasn’t been reciprocated in a long while.

I know many people today feel intense loneliness, and feel isolated from the people around them. Socializing simply isn’t as easy as we thought, despite our craving for friendship or romance.

So, what do we try now?

My latest depressive episode has had me thinking the worst about my circumstances, but it also has taught me something about myself. Sometimes, when I’m feeling lonely, I retreat farther into myself, instead of reaching out to people. Believe me, I know how easy it is to become bitter and angry about a lack of kind, like-minded people in one’s life. However, turning down people while in a bad mood can lead to missed opportunities.

Waiting to feel better or ready for human connection has only drained me further. I want to connect with people, but I have to be willing to push through my fears and doubts to get there.

Even if it ends up as another failed relationship, I want to keep trying.